20 August 2013

I have a raging case of insomnia.  Which is a little upsetting, since it's been so long since I've had to deal with it.  But, it's now 0200, I've been up since midnight, and my alarm goes off in two hours.  Awesome.  I even tried sending myself back to sleep with my good, old standby, self1induced orgasm.  No dice.  Well, hell.  That was a waste of battery power.  To make matters worse, I woke up singing "The Sounds of Silence." Yeah, that helps.  And, because my brain works this way, I began singing this to the tune:

Hello, Insomnia my old friend,
I see you're keeping me up again.
Now is the time I should be sleeping,
Not around the house creeping,
And I'm so tired
I can't remember my name
I'm going insane
With you, Insomnia.

Okay, so it's not great, but I could have done worse at this time of day on three hours of sleep.  And I should apologize ahead of time for the raging bitch fest that's coming towards my co-workers.  *sigh*  Sorry about that.

Will this make it better?

07 August 2013

You want to know the absolute, worst feeling in the world?  It's when the most important and needed thing you want say to someone is the least wanted thing to be heard.  And then knowing that's the case.  And still wanting to say it every day, in every way.  But not doing it, so that no one is "uncomfortable."  Oh, well; fuck 'em if they can't take a joke.  My new(ish) philosophy.  Like the Ministy of Magic, I remain....strong.  (And, apparently, a giant nerd.)

This calls for some Tina.  

21 May 2013

So much for my determination to blog more often.  Eh, life happens.  And in response to my shame at not blogging, here ya go:

Part two

18 February 2013

I do believe I found the problem with my Ensign.  Anyone who knows me knows I like unmedicated labors or I like patient's who are almost circling the drain; give me a patient on Mag, Insulin, and Pit with a side order of pressor drugs and I'm one happy camper. I love me some adrenaline!  Don't get me wrong; normal, uncomplicated labors with epidurals and c-sections have the effect on me to a degree.  Seeing a family made complete, a new mom and dad enjoying this little person they've been wanting to meet for so long is amazing and humbling no matter how the kiddo comes out, or the circumstances surrounding the birth.  But day after day of induction, epidural, induction, epidural has a Groundhog Day effect and can leave me wondering if I need to change jobs for a little while.  Add in to this stew of ennui, a clueless Ensign who can't seem to grasp what the hell is going on no matter how many times I tell her, and I'm about to pull her hair out, along with my own, and weave a raft to paddle my happy little ass away from this Island of Frustration.

The other day I had her running triage with the understanding that the first patient through the door, in labor, was ours for delivery.  She needs to get the hang of the rapid changes that can occur during delivery and the need to multi-task with, sometimes, three different people asking you for something at once.  She's a very concrete thinker, and in high stress situations, tends to get ye olde "deer in the headlights" look about her.  Anyway, this young lady comes in to triage, it's her second baby, she is found to be 5 centimeters and she is adamant about not having an epidural.  Fine.  She "caved" (her words) during her last delivery and wanedt to avoid the word even being mentioned in her presence this time.  I told Ens. Getaclue that the patient and her husband needed to come up with a code word, known only to them, that, if she changed her mind and said it, would allow us to get her whatever pain management she wanted,  Otherwise, we would comply with her wishes and not talk to her about epidural even if she requested one.  (Some mamas, in the throes of transition, have been know to promise to give out the launch codes if they can just have an epidural.  This is transition speaking, not the mother's desire.  Unless she throws out the code word, like, say "chimichanga" and then her support person lets us know the patient is indeed serious about her desire to make this madness stop,)  We had been busier than a one legged man in an ass kicking contest lately, so we only had one room available and it had recently been cleaned.  The corpsmen were in the process of putting it back together and stocking it, so the patient was going to ambulate in the halls for a little while, unil the room was ready and then we would finish the admission process.  Which in this hospital meas at least IV access and labs for all laboring patients. As I am very territorial and have a definite "see a need, fill a need" mentality, I have not allowed myself to be in the room with Ens. Getaclue, unless she specifically asks for me.  So, I'm in the nurse's station, pacing back and forth (I hate not having anything to do) when I see this patient ambulating in the halls.  Then stop.  Get a death grip on the railing, bend her knees and breathe through a contraction.  "Shit, oh dear, " I think to myself.  I go to the room designated for her use and ask one of the minions if the room was about ready.  They only had linen left to stock in the room, so I said, "That can be done while she's in the room."  I urged the patient into the room and asked if she was interested in the tub.  She said, definitely, and since it takes roughly a millenium to fill, I started the water then went to tell the corpsman to set up a table.  The Ensign went in to start her IV, missed and asked me to come try.  I go in the room and wait while the patient signs her consents.  As I'm putting on the tourniquet she asks when she can get in the tub, and I told her if she wanted she could go right now and I could start her IV in there.  She jumps up, speed walks to the bathroom, and starts disrobing faster than a sophmore on prom night.  As she gets in the tub, she visibly relaxes and I say, "Awesome, right?" to which she replies, "Ten times better."  She has a contraction that she deals well with, kneeling in the tub surrounded by lovely water.  I
 put on the tourniquet to finally get this IV in, and she says, "You might want to wait...." So I release the tourniquet and she starts moaning, her eyes get the size of hubcaps, and she moves to where she is now sitting in the tub. I ask, "What are you feeling? knowing damn well what the answer is going to be, and she wails, "Lots of pressure!" with "pressure" being said on a gutteral growl that pretty much means "tape the windows, baby here comes the hurricane."  I, being much experienced and knowing that if I have a baby in this tub, the psycho doctor that's on the deck will make damn sure it's a blazing day in the ol' PacNW before a laboring patient gets in the tub if she's more than 2 centimeters, so I did the only thing I could; I shoved my arm into the water and stuck my left (and only gloved) hand onto her vulva, told her to blow and not push as I feel her perineum, and therefore the baby 's head, bulging into my hand.
I asked the Ensign to drain the tub and go get the doctor.  Then, as I felt her standing there looking at me, I looked her dead in the eyes and clearly stated, "Drain.  This.  Tub.  Go.  Get.  The.  Doctor."  This made some impact on her psyche, as she left the bathroom and returned with a physician.  By this time, the patient had enough clarity to say, "I'm ready, " flung her arms around my neck, I pulled her from the tub and she sprinted, literally sprinted, to the bed.  She crawled on it, about four seconds later her water broke, she looked at me and said, "What do I do???"  I told her to push her baby out, and voila!  Undmedicated birth, just like she wanted.  I was so stoked, you could have powered a small country with the energy I was feeling!  I was dancing around saying, "Oh my god, I DO love my job!"  And after this beautiful, natural, wonderful delivery, my Ensign came up to me and said, "I did NOT like that.  That scared the shit out of me."  And therein lies our problem.  Perhaps this is not the specialty for you, sister.  

02 February 2013

Argh!  Just went to buy tickets for me and the boys for Brian Regan, coming to Skedaddle on March 23rd.  Figured it would be a fine way to help celebrate what would have been my 15h anniversary (March 21st), and what better way than to spend it with the boys, seeing a comedian that we all enjoy, as did their dad.  Yep, perfect plan.  I was on the website, ready to click "buy" when I said to myself, "Self, you should just double check that that is your weekend off."  Alas, alackaday, it is not.  Poop!  I guess that just saved me $160 bucks, but I'd much rather have gone to see him.
We just got back from Hansel and Gretel well, FB and I did, SoS declined. So, we took him over to Grandma's house with his brand new copy of Hotel Transylvania. And about three seconds into the start of our movie, I turned to FB and said, "It's a good thing SoS didn't want to come." To which FB replied, "Yeah, he'd have nightmares until he was forty." Needless to say, there were some elements of the film not for those of tender years or faint of heart. Despite the rather young children I saw in the theater. It was a fun film, with some serious action and some equally serious gore. Mwahahahaha! Of course, I wouldn't have cared what was happening as soon as Jeremy Renner took off his shirt. *sigh* This isn't without his shirt, but it has a nice brooding quality:
Also not shirtless, but you can see the potential:
And here, it just seems like my kind of guy:

01 February 2013

Okay, so I have been slacking a tad, but I have good reason.  First, I actually started writing the previous post the second week of January.  And then my laptop ate itself.  I took it in to get it resurrected and, after three weeks of silence, called to see what the dealio was.  Hard drive trashed.  Not sure why this keeps happening.  Perhaps it's the porn.  I kid.  Why question mark because I love exclamation point.  Anyway, just got my new laptop today, and because I am incapable of waiting for anything, I bought it yesterday and had it overnight shipped.  Hey!  It was an option and only cost 45 dollars.  Seemed ridiculous to not take advantage.I have many posts floating in my head.  One would hope that I can actually get them out and they will be half as funny here as they are when I'm thinking of them.  And if not, I'll just post lots of man candy. Like, say, this one:


It's a new year!  It feels the same.  It usually does.  But, since I'm rapidly approaching 46 (*gasp*), I'm getting to where I am cutting dead wood left and right.  I don't have time to waste with unimportant situations people; I may be dead any second.  (Sorry, my 12 year old self sometimes intervenes and regards my age like unto Methuselah.)

As a final "F you" before she got out of the Navy, one of my bosses scheduled me to work Christmas Eve, Christmas Day, and the day after Christmas.  Let's talk about how ecstatic my mother was to hear this news.  Yikes.  We all survived, but I'm not sure we've all forgiven. :)  And. in true holiday fashion, I got pulled over for speeding on Christmas. Just hear how this went down.  My neighborhood abuts a gated community.  Because we were here first, we get the right of way and the inhabitants of the enclave have to cool their heels for a bit at a stop sign while I go sailing blithely past.  So I did.  The car that had to wait followed me down the hill and around the first (yes, there is more than one) roundabout.  As we crossed the overpass on the way into the second roundabout, this car suddenly swerves around me and goes flying onto the freeway.  I noticed it was a sheriff's car. Hmmm... he must have received a call and is now in high speed pursuit.  I continued to ponder this until I came up on the same sheriff's vehicle on the highway.  Going maybe, 55.  I moved over to the passing lane, and, just as pulled even, the sheriff took off at about 80 or 90.  Ooookaaaaay. Perhaps they had cancelled the first high speed pursuit, and substituted this one in it's place.  I move back into the right hand lane.  And about five minutes later, come up on this same cop.  As I start to move to the passing lane, so as not to tailgate this officer, (s)he swerves onto the shoulder.  I now no longer believe that this is a cop, but rather a cop's child who has taken the vehicle without permission to do God knows what.  As I'm contemplating whether I should call in such erratic behavior, the sheriff comes up behind me, moves over to pass me, and rides my rear corner panel for about 15 minutes.  At which point, I have now dropped down to 40, because it's the speed limit, and he decides to pull me over.  When his lights went on, I've got to tell you, my first reaction wasn't "Damn, I'm getting pulled over."  It was, "Who is he getting?" Rapidly followed by, "Oh, I'm getting pulled over." I pull over, put on my flashers, roll down the passenger's side window, and have my documents ready to hand over when this dude comes sidling up to my car, peeks around the door frame like we're in downtown Detroit, or at least, T-town, shines his Bigfoot sized Maglite in my face, and asks, "Are you going somewhere this morning?"  No sir, I routinely drive around randomly at 0630 on Christmas Day.  I did not, in fact, say that.  But I thought it. I hand over the goods and he questions me as to if I knew how fast I was going.  I gave him a blank look and said, "Just now?"  He said, "No, when you came up behind me." Now, of course my first reaction was to ask, "Which time?", but as I have gained some maturity and caution in the years I've been on this earth, I said, "Ummm, 60?  I had the cruise control on,"  He proceeded to explain that my cruise control must be faulty because he clocked me going 67 (Really?  While you too were in motion? Interesting.) until I got down to 40 and he pulled me over.  (Yes, after the fact when I was going the speed limit.) Then, without ever looking at my documents, he handed them back and told me to slow it down.  So, I can only deduce that one should not drive anywhere around a county sheriff when he is resenting working on Christmas Day.